I was just looking outside to my backyard and there was my Festival of Birds!!! Well that’s what I call them!!! I have 4 bird feeders and there were so many birds singing and chirping, eating and playing. What a scene. I love this stuff. I love watching the birds play and eat and argue, feed their babies and others trying to mate with whoever will have him.
It reminds me of the days I used to sit on my back porch and watch the birds, the butterflies, the flowers and loving every minute of it. This was during the time that I literally was dying from Emphysema. Here I was in my early 50’s wearing oxygen all the time. . .my only activity then was sitting and watching the birds. I could not do anything else. My job was to just breathe. That was job enough because my lungs were only functioning at 20%. So I took my job seriously by breathing and witnessing this glory called nature.
This back porch sitting was the best time of my life! I became what God calls us to be ~ alive, aware, and witness to this beautiful world we are given to enjoy. It was a time for reflection for sure. It was also a time to just sit quietly, breathe and soak in God’s love. It was a time for deep prayer, for wondering what the future held, but more than that it was a time to be fully alive even though my life was slipping away at that moment. I had no idea whether I would survive this illness, but I was content in knowing that God had me no matter how it evolved.
My wish for my friends is that they get to experience what I experienced during that time and it is my prayer that I will be able to stay there. I am so grateful for the life I have been given a second chance ~ and now that I had been given a second chance I want to live that life to the fullest.
Truth be told, I have to say that I seem to have fallen back into being too busy to sit on that porch and witness God’s creation, so as soon as I place the last period on this piece I am going out to my beloved back porch to just breathe!!!
Sandy Ozanich (c) August 6, 2014